When people ask how you’re doing at the end of the semester
wow tadpoles in mouth that’s so crazy
Yeah son I don’t know how to explain this to you but those arent tadpoles.
I’m gunna write a letter to myself 5 years ago when I was 16 because it is 3am and I can’t sleep.
Hello me. My God you’re about to have a hell of a lot of changes happen in the next 5 years, I can’t believe it’s been only 5. The basic stuff: You’re now blonde, have had two serious boyfriends and are in your third serious relationship. This one makes the other two look stupid and pointless. This guy is just the cats motherfucking pyjamas and you are stoked every day that you get to hang out with him and that he loves you too.
Yes, you went from school to uni. Yes, you failed a lot of papers. What are papers? Don’t worry, you’ll get it. Basically you have to do an extra year because you fucked up the equivalent of a whole year. You study psychology and love it. You regret fucking so much of uni up but while it hurts, you don’t let it stop you. You keep on fucking going because you feel in your gut that you have to keep climbing.
The second relationship lasts for over a year and was the dumbest thing you’ve done yet. It taught us a lot but fuck. You move in with a dude having only known him for 3 months and discover (fully) that he is a self-absorbed, immature, piece of shit who treats you like an emotional punching bag and his mother and you are awful to him in response. The whole thing is toxic, but you are trapped by a lease that you are too stubborn to get out of. It would mean going back to Dads house and you refuse. You finally end it, having lost all your friends, and move in with total strangers through a student accommodation ad. These guys turn everything around and you will regard this is the best decision you ever made.
Sadly, depression comes to bite you in the ass (for no reason, asshole mental illness) and you will contemplate suicide more seriously than you ever have before but you won’t do it, and you will see in a matter of months what a great decision it was to get help and to hold on for those better days, because they are here, and they’re awesome. It will take a while to recover, but you have people around you to support you and it turns out you’re actually the toughest bitch out there and can get through anything.
You stay really close to Dad and Jarrod and they are the coolest guys out there (Hard to process at 16, I know) and you love each other to bits. Dads girlfriend stays on the scene. She’s ok. You’ll come to like her.
Life’s awesome, you figure some shit out and then realize you have so much more to learn, and you’re so prepared to take it on. Turns out there’s fuck all you can’t do - Just don’t give up before the first hurdle (you’ll get that joke after Athletics next year)
Me saving my grades at the end of a term